Climbing uphill....

It's both awesome and overwhelming to be in a room in which you are literally the least talented person. We are halfway through the second week of rehearsals for Hair, and quite simply, I'm a little bit out of my league...

Being able to look around at your cast members and see what you could be is completely different than anything I have experienced since I was a sophomore in high school. When I went to CEU I was never really surrounded by upperclassmen, so I never had this feeling of awe at the people around me. Being in hair is completely different.

And I'm not just trying to seem humble here. This ins't one of those "I'm going to tell you how much I suck so you can tell me how good I am" situations. It isn't like that at all. There is simply no doubt in my mind that of all the cast members, I have the least experience, training and talent when it comes to singing and dancing (even though I'm older than half of them). It's a fact. It can't be denied.

Now I know that sounds bad. I know it may seem like I'm whining. Actually, I'm doing quite the opposite. I'm not upset at the situation at all. In fact, it is exactly what I wanted. I wanted a humbling experience that forced me to work hard to hold my own. And my hell, I'm getting it! I feel so liberated and excited and energized. In this show, with this cast and this director, I will not be able to fall back on my old tricks and habits that have gotten me through before. I'm going to have to be constantly working and growing. I can't express what an amazing feeling that is. I have so much to be grateful for.

I can't wait.

-mikey-